waiting

You'll never know and will never understand why tears keep falling from my eyes in the middle of the night. That fear of losing you kept creeping in my mind. That your answer will determine who I'll be for the next years of my life.

So make sure you decide fast. While I can still endure the wound in my heart. While I can still accept the pain that keeps on reminding me that it's now impossible you'll gonna come back.

Go on and leave me now. Even if I lay myself to sleep crying, don't you worry I'm a strong woman, remember? This too shall pass. Don't be too extra nice. I know you don't feel any love for me. I knew it from the start. I can manage. Just go.

I love you even if you don't. No there's no regret. I just love you. That's all that matters to me. And if ever the time comes that you realize that you do need me and that you love me, why you are still welcome. But I assure you, this time will be different.

And hey, I'm gonna miss you. :((