cornered

i may be out of focus
maybe i am more preoccupied
that i forgot to even smile in the morning
or to bade goodbye to the night sky

did i take things for granted
did i waste a lot of time
i might throw out important pieces of advice
and stick with my own mind

oh yeah the wind is blowing
and i can hear the water flowing
they are my constant reminder
that life outside is full of wonders

but all i do is run and chase time
I tried to do everything in my hands
forgetting to savour the moment of rest
that i deserve some silence and stillness

grab my hand and prevent my feet from leaving
i wonder if i'll ever be stopping
help me to understand where am i standing
tell me now what are we still waiting

basted

ilang pick-up lines na ba ang binitiwan mo

ilang rosas ang pinitas at ilang tsokolate ang binili 

pero anong nangyare?

may napala ka ba sa huli

sabi mo dati maghihintay ka

titiisin lahat para sa kanya

magiging mabuting tao para sa darating na araw

maipagmamalaki ka rin, mapapansin din

pero ilang "friends na lang tayo" ang nais mo pang marinig

na sa tuwing sasambitin eh nakakatulig

kaya ang puso mong gawa sa papel noon

aba kasintigas na ng bato ngayon

musikang pang-single aba ni-relate mo lahat sa sarili

marinig mo lang pangalan niya di ka na mapakali

kakain ng mag-isa naiisip mo ang dati

inaalala kahit masakit, kahit binibiyak ang iyong dibdib

wala namang pag-asa pero puso mo'y umaasa

lilingon ba siya sa nakalipas o tuluyan nang aalpas

lahat ng effort di na napansin

lahat ng nangyari noon, wala ng dating

"kung ang mundo ay umiikot sa araw

bakit ang mundo ko sayo lang gumagalaw"

ayos na pick-up pero walang binatbat

sa sanlibo mong kalaban sa mundong pinagaagawan

cry of the unborn

..i can hear the ticking of the clock
it’s time!...it’s time!..
this wall that surrounds me
so thick, i can’t even breathe

it hurts, what is it?
my heart beats faster
it suffocates me
i do want to live please let me

my vision is blurry
did you take another dose
that you are not allowed to

my stomach lurched
i felt dizzy i need to vomit
what is this feeling..so strange

you can’t even hear me cry
i tried to kick you
but my legs were weak, can’t move

i want to see the world hang on there
but how will i if you want me to die
i love you but you just let me go...

...solitude

bright sunshine and cool air
fills the room of emptiness
chirping birds flying across
passing through like time does

leaves keep falling
as tears continue rolling
misty eyed, fiery inside
getting used to being left behind

seasons changed and so are things
what’s left are marred pieces
of emotions pained
of feelings afflicted

the melody of the night
kept humming inside
the shadow of yesterday
is no where in sight..

When I think about you I can see....

A bunch of fragrant flowers wrapped in colored paper
The sweet sound of music as guitar plays to serenade
The aroma of vegetable soup of chicken and mushroom
A compilation of your widely read comic book

A photograph of your childhood, of memories untold
A notebook of writings, the richness of imagination
A set of collectible, of youthful living and enjoyment
The love for feline, nothing more nothing less

It's when you talk of your mum and the good heart she has
The joy of seeing you play with your nieces & nephews & siblings alike
How you love your buddies ,how you treasure the moments shared with them
The care you showed to everyone, even if it's not returned at all

The smile that cannot be compared
The warmth of hugs on a rainy day
The smooth kisses you give along the way
The hands that holds mine as we walk by the bay

The sun that kisses the rain away for hope of a better day
The rain poured out from the sky to get some shiver down the spine
The moon and the stars that glows in the darkest of night that brings romance
...and just that the universe collides when you are by my side.

....writer kuno

ilang papel na ba ang pinunit ko
mula ng makuha kong maupo
hawak ko ang panulat
di ko naman maisulat

ginugulo pa din ako ng alaala
na matagal ko nang binalewala
tila ba isang surot
malikot, pilit sumusuot

nagtimpla na ako ng kape
mga mata ko ay nanlalake
di na magawang matulog
nilisan na ng antok

kitang-kita ko pa rin ang imahe
ng nakaraang pilit winawaglit
mga sandaling ayaw kong idetalye
pero syang sumisiksik

mata koy nagngangalit
kamay koy nananakit
una sa papel na patuloy na napupunit
at sa putol na lapis na di na makaguhit

asan na nga ba ang mga ideya
tila ba hanging inilipad na
kung doon kaya ako’y sumama
may maisusulat pa kaya?

uncertainty

how long will i wait

for the day that isn't coming

will i cover myself up under those sheets

to hide the tears that's rolling down deep

i remember quite a bit

how you simply swept me off my feet

it's like i'm daydreaming

the feeling is never-ending

then you came at my doorstep

with flowers, chocolates, all my favorites

you sang a good tune for me

it became my heart's bittersweet symphony

the days and weeks and months passes by

still you care for me all the while

you were there for me all this time

making me laugh and cry at the same time

we've been through ups and downs

you've carried my burden at some point

you keep on putting a smile at my face

you never let tears ruin our days

then i've asked myself how could it be

that all these things aren't real

that you one day will just step out

and all that's happened were just  show offs

why? cos we are not "us"

it's just you and me

how i long for that day to come

though you're with me yet not mine

i tried to hide the pain by saying it's just fine

that the right time will come for you to be mine

i just don't want to waste time waiting for nothing

so tell me what we really are before the worse things happen

tell me how long will i wait for the day that isn't coming

tell me that what we did is not done for nothing

while it's still new, while i'm not deeply in love with you

tell me if i have to let love go, tell me if i have to let you go

Pagkakataon

Kanina sa gilid ng lawa sa takipsilim nadama ko ang katahimikan
Habang umiihip ang hangin na siyang yumayakap sa akin

Bagamat katabi ko siya
Pakiramdam ko ako'y mag-isa
Salamat sa kalangitan sa hangin at sa lawa
Lumbay ko'y napalitan ng kapayapaan

Alam kong ang biglang pagluha ko ay nasaksihan ng langit
Habang yakap naman ako ng malawak na tubig
At kalungkutan ko'y marahang tinangay ng hangin

Kung maaari lang na wag ng lisanin ang tila santwaryo
Ay mainam kong di nanaisin
Sapagkat sa lugar na yaon na malapit sa tubigan
Damdamin kong ito'y manapa ay may katahimikan

keep on pouring

The rain is supposed to keep me alive.
But today why am I maddened by its presence
Why do I feel like I'm dying inside
Knowing I should be in a happy state

For most I should celebrate
It's another year for me
Another opportunity
To correct the past mistake

In my mind I had it that way
Another day another year
I am most grateful it came

I just can't help but give more time to think things over
Moreso I can't help the tears that are flowing
Together with the rain they kept on pouring
How come the state of happiness which I should feel became a tearful state that made me grow weaker.

stranded

sounds funny but true
i'm missing the old days when i'm with you

yes you're still with me now
but it seems like ages
i felt so alone
as if you're not existing

i know it's always been him/her
and yes it hurts

just cant help it
weird to think about it
how will you know
how will you understand

i'm chasing my way back to the old you
and i'm running alone
i know you won't even follow

Di mahanap ang saysay

Sa gitna ng karimlan

Liwanag ng bituin ang naging tanglaw

Ang dampi ng hangin

Ay may banayad na paggalaw

Musika sa pandinig ang panaghoy ng dahon

Kay inam sa mata ang galaw ng alon

Sa buhangin kung saan humahampas ito

Bakas ng bawat salpok ang namamataan dito

Di pa man nagtatagal

nakaramdam na ng pagkapagal

Ang hangin na kanina lamang ay banayad sa pagsayaw

Ay di na maramdaman wari’y pumanaw

Oras ay tumatakbo

Di kayang habulin ng mga anino

Yabag ay di marinig

Sa katahimikang kanina pa napunit

Hawak mo ang panulat, papel mo man ay di mahanap

Halika at iguhit mo ang nais sa hangin

Hayaan mong sa langit ito ay tangayin

O kaya naman ay isulat mo ito sa buhangin

Sa pagdaan ng alon hayaan mong pawiin

Hindi iyon mawawala

Ito’y mananatili lamang doon

Lilipas man ang panahon

Ang naisulat at naiguhit na ay isa na lamang alaala ng kahapon

Lumangpapel