Wish you were here...

I was your favorite...of course I'm your one and only.
You used to call me beautiful (you're the only one I trust when it comes to this area), your princess, your angel.
You treated me well, loved me more than anyone else in this world.
I was your little mic, the love of your life, your precious gem

I remembered one time, we talked. That was the first time ever that I saw you cried in front of me. Only telling me that you're proud of me. That I'm irreplaceable. Nothing in this world could compare to me.

We cried that night. It was something memorable to me, That was a week before you left.

You stood by me through thick and thin (well there's no thickness I guess because I'm thin)
You did everything for me...to much that I can't even repay it back to you.

There were times when I'm not that good at all. I gave you headaches and made you worried at times.
I also put a frown on your face and made you mad most of the time.
I even thought of being unwanted and thought of being a prodigal one.
But even though I've made all those things, your love still amazes me

You've been so patient, so kind, workaholic
You've carried the burden all by yourself
You've been so strong. You've endured all the pain
You've given me enough...it may not be material things. It's more than money could buy

You've been my strength, my comfort
You're my words of wisdom, my encourager, my English teacher, my absorber, my wall

How could it be that you're gone from my sight
How after four years, it seems like it just happened yesterday

How I wish you're still here, watching me sleep, cooking anything you could offer, see where I'm standing now as your child, as a lady, as a woman.

How I pray that whenever it is my birthday, you would tickle my feet, kiss me in my forehead, giving me your widest smile as you greet me one happy blessed birthday

Ah...the days when you used to hold my hand and led me as we walked the street. I was 5 then, and you protected me from that fat woman who wanted to get me from you.

You never failed, even though I failed you at some point. You have made my heart stronger when you break it just by leaving me alone.

Can you come back even just for a second just to touch your face and see your smile?

Can you...

Will you...

i miss you daddy


P.S. You told me you're my number 1 fan. so don't destroy that loyalty wherever you are, ok.
I love you

and if I could turn back time, and i have to choose a father, I will still choose you...simply because you're irreplaceable. One great dad above anyone else.

...solitude

bright sunshine and cool air
fills the room of emptiness
chirping birds flying across
passing through like time does

leaves keep falling
as tears continue rolling
misty eyed, fiery inside
getting used to being left behind

seasons changed and so are things
what’s left are marred pieces
of emotions pained
of feelings afflicted

the melody of the night
kept humming inside
the shadow of yesterday
is no where in sight..

When I think about you I can see....

A bunch of fragrant flowers wrapped in colored paper
The sweet sound of music as guitar plays to serenade
The aroma of vegetable soup of chicken and mushroom
A compilation of your widely read comic book

A photograph of your childhood, of memories untold
A notebook of writings, the richness of imagination
A set of collectible, of youthful living and enjoyment
The love for feline, nothing more nothing less

It's when you talk of your mum and the good heart she has
The joy of seeing you play with your nieces & nephews & siblings alike
How you love your buddies ,how you treasure the moments shared with them
The care you showed to everyone, even if it's not returned at all

The smile that cannot be compared
The warmth of hugs on a rainy day
The smooth kisses you give along the way
The hands that holds mine as we walk by the bay

The sun that kisses the rain away for hope of a better day
The rain poured out from the sky to get some shiver down the spine
The moon and the stars that glows in the darkest of night that brings romance
...and just that the universe collides when you are by my side.